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After you told me everything,
I wondered how long have you felt that way.but i don't think it goes all the way to 2yrs back when we first came to know each other?

I admit.I'm not at all shocked.
I bet you noticed that too.
I'm pretty much composed.
not at all shaken.
I couldn't explain the serenity that I felt.
maybe I already have an answer at that moment.

The little things that you have done for me during the past few months
isn't that little at all.
I noticed it all,
though it might not seem to be that obvious or significant.

We talked a lot about "my ideal pretty Jap boyfriend"
and I realised
that you've changed in a way too.

I like it when you said
"if I sit the wrong bus, give me a call and I'll drive you to your next destination."
it really makes me smiles.

I felt comfortable when I'm with you.
but
being comfortable with someone isn't enough.
like what gf always say:
Being comfortable with someone doesn't spell l-o-v-e.

I've a very long talk with gf after I gt home.
My gf has been with me for 9yrs.
She knows me inside out, just like a lil worm living in my tummy.

I have become more clear-headed.
I know what I really want now.

Well.
Thanks for the roses.I really like it.its a perfect shade of red. =)
Thanks for the potatoes salad.I ate it all up without sharing with Boshy.
Thanks for the card. The message means really a lot to me.
and
everything else that you've done.

I really don't wish to lose you as a friend.
I like the way things are before all these.
I like taking.joking.craping.poking . you.
I really do cherish this special friendship.

so,forgive me,
for all the hurts that I've put you through.
but remember please,
that I'll be there for you too.

IthinkImighthavefallenforsomeone.as much as I don't wish to admit to myself.
it hit me.suddenly.when I thought of all these.
I guess that the main reason why I can't be with you.

I'm really sorry.
text me after you read this okay.
let me know that you are fine.