When things all go wrong.

Elmo sang loudly this morning at 6am.But i ignored it.until Big Bird started to sing in his awful voice.I crawled around my bed.found my phone near my strawberries and pressed it away. I felt reallyreally exhausted.but i know i still have to wake up. Obediently, I went to wash up then changed.

I put on my make-up.I forgot all about my moisturiser.(argh) but I've no time to remove it and re-apply. I stared into the mirror and smiled. It gonna be a good day, i guess.

But,alas,not a moment it would be.

I boarded the bus.the screen exclaimed in CAPITAL LETTER "PAY CASH". okay. so my concession has ended without my knowing about it. i dug my wallet for coins. Im too lazy to count so i overturn my wallet and let all of it fall into the container. The driver gave me a pretty weird look. I wanted to tell him that I am going Changi Airport (if only I have told him that).

The traffic is heavy. I know I will be late for work. maybe about 20mins?
At the end of SengKang, the bus turned left. (it suppose to turn right). Im baffled. I looked around the bus expecting people to protest about the wrong direction that the driver had made. But no, some continue reading.some listening to thier mp3.some dozing off to a world of their own. I realized that I boarded the wrong bus (ARGH!)

I dont even know the bus number.
I dont even know where it is heading.
I dont even know when I can alight.(its started travelling on the expressway)
I dont even know where I can alight.
I dont even know how long the journey to the next stop will be.

but i know that...

my concession has ended. and there aren't credit value inside.
I've no coins left.
I've a ten dollar note though.
and my POSB card.(which is of no use unless there's an atm machine)
oh. and i know that I'm not going work anymore.I need to take MC.
called Jaren and told him what happened since he's working at transit two.
He asked me to alight. but I couldnt. I need an interchange to top up my card.
so I carry on taking the bus.

until a point of time.when I have a bad feeling bout all these.
The bus arrived at an ulu industrial stop. many people alighted. I tugged the lady besides me
and asked where the bus is heading to. She said CHANGI VILLAGE. omg. the only idea I've of Changi village is that there is a Changi Village hotel there. and many trans and gay hang out there at night.

I hurried down the bus.
I looked at all the unfamiliar building around me.seriously.i dont know where am I.
I felt a pat on my shoulder.
I turned around.
The lady smiled and asked whether am I okay.
I nodded my head and smiled.

then,I started shaking my head profusely.
I told her that I need coins to get back home and yada yada yada yada.
she searched her wallet but alas, she gt no coins at all.
so she brought me to an old mini-mart and pointed to the direction of the bus stop that I have to go to later on.and, she head off to her workplace.(I hope she's not late.)

I grabbed kinder bueno.
I stood on the pavement.
I shuffle my mp3 to Avril Lavigne's When You're Gone.
For a moment, my mind drifted back to 2yrs back.
I wondered what would have happened if all these happened 2yrs ago.
I believed that he will come straight down to bring me back home safely.
or at least
he'll chat with me on the phone till Im fine to be on my own.
I felt pretty lost for awhile.

so i walked on.alone.but its alright.

I made it back home safely.
I got my MC too.
I've decided not to go for Jap class.
Im needed some time on my own i guess.

I slept from 1400 till now.
Im that burnt out.
Last night.Talking on MSN with 13 people.blasting my music.struggling with my jap hwk.isn't that bad at all. but it made me so tired this morning.

its time for me to learn to sleep early. =)

I'm not afraid to keep on living.
I'm not afraid to walk this world alone.
really.